[ Buck's been in and out of relationships so much the last few years. They've always felt good and right in the moment, always been exactly what he wanted at the time. Abby taught him what commitment and security feels like, and he's been chasing it ever since. Searching for it in all the wrong places. Desperate for it in a way he can't put into words.
He's spent so long watching everyone in his life meet their soul mates. Athena and Bobby, Maddie and Chimney, Hen and Karen. Watching from the outside as his friends build these beautiful futures together. The unconditional love, the unwavering support.
The only love he's known has been conditional, rife with ultimatums and contingencies. A revolving door of people who deem him not worth sticking around for. Even Eddie. Even Maddie.
He never would've thought that the right place to look was his first aid certification class. And he wasn't looking, really. As a matter of fact, he was starting to consider how much it sucked to wear his heart on his sleeve the way he does. After he starts to fall, he struggles to hold back. Hand on the throttle, full speed ahead. Which always turns into too much, too soon. He's so tired of being too much.
Rey doesn't make him feel that way. She doesn't roll her eyes when he suggests a new nature documentary. She suggests things like making ball pits inside his loft. She's probably the smartest person he's ever met, but not once has she ever made him feel stupid. Only cherished. Spoiled. Cared for. This feels different than all the others. Like the beginnings of something that can actually be something.
It's all he can think about when she's close to him like this. Neither of them are willing to commit to pulling away. They should make dinner, the flowers should have a vase. The hand near her waist slides up beneath the hem of her shirt, fingers seeking the soft skin at the small of her back. ]
I mean, they'll probably be fine for like-- an hour. Right?
[ Maybe a little more than an hour, he's really missed her. As he leans down to kiss her again, a little more languidly than before, the hand from her chin reaches blindly for the flowers to set them aside on the counter. ]
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He's spent so long watching everyone in his life meet their soul mates. Athena and Bobby, Maddie and Chimney, Hen and Karen. Watching from the outside as his friends build these beautiful futures together. The unconditional love, the unwavering support.
The only love he's known has been conditional, rife with ultimatums and contingencies. A revolving door of people who deem him not worth sticking around for. Even Eddie. Even Maddie.
He never would've thought that the right place to look was his first aid certification class. And he wasn't looking, really. As a matter of fact, he was starting to consider how much it sucked to wear his heart on his sleeve the way he does. After he starts to fall, he struggles to hold back. Hand on the throttle, full speed ahead. Which always turns into too much, too soon. He's so tired of being too much.
Rey doesn't make him feel that way. She doesn't roll her eyes when he suggests a new nature documentary. She suggests things like making ball pits inside his loft. She's probably the smartest person he's ever met, but not once has she ever made him feel stupid. Only cherished. Spoiled. Cared for. This feels different than all the others. Like the beginnings of something that can actually be something.
It's all he can think about when she's close to him like this. Neither of them are willing to commit to pulling away. They should make dinner, the flowers should have a vase. The hand near her waist slides up beneath the hem of her shirt, fingers seeking the soft skin at the small of her back. ]
I mean, they'll probably be fine for like-- an hour. Right?
[ Maybe a little more than an hour, he's really missed her. As he leans down to kiss her again, a little more languidly than before, the hand from her chin reaches blindly for the flowers to set them aside on the counter. ]